Sorry about not keeping my promise of writing a real post yesterday. I did have time but just couldn’t get myself to write anything.
Don’t have much to say even today. Just that I feel a little odd right now. I don’t know why, but I just do.
I can’t help reminiscing about the happier times when I stayed with my sister, bro-in-law and niece here in Bangalore. Good times!! I had to commute 20km everyday to my office cos we lived on the outskirts of the city but I never complained (okay, maybe a little cos the roads were bad, but still not much).
Then my bro-in-law got transferred to Delhi and I started living alone. It’s not very common for people my age to stay alone. Generally, 2-3 people share an apartment but since I didn’t have any friends I could share an apartment with, this was the only option I had.
But I have got used to staying alone now. I actually enjoy living alone.
But for the past two days though, something seems to be wrong. I can’t really put a finger on it, so I’ll employ a few lines of a song to express my current feeling.
“I can’t be sure that this state of mind
Is not of my own design
I wish there was an over-the-counter test for loneliness
For loneliness like this
Something’s missing
And I don’t know how to fix it
Something’s missing
And I don’t know what it is
No I don’t know what it is”
— from “Something’s Missing” by John Mayer.
[Now, I don’t generally quote songs or poems on this blog and don’t really read them when others do but since these few lines describe my current mood appropriately, I couldn’t help but use them.]
U kno u can always call up either me or lucio if u r feelin a lil weird !
i kno what u mean abt livin alone.. since my roommate is not here . i hav gotten used to stayin alone
i dnt kno how i’ll manage when she gets back.. first i hav to clear her bed on which i hav dumped a lot of my stuff
i feel the way you do… and i’m living with two people.
i dont really feel understood. does that make sense?
totally feel u cos im kinda in the same shoes! its always blessed to be with families n friends!
I just know how it feels. I used to stay alone for quite sometime. After a while u seem to love the privacy and freedom but sometimes the loneliness just gets to you.
Hey Raj, I am always there whenever u feel alone or weird or whatever it is.
cmon dude..move on in life..she is a bitch
@akanksha: Thanx. I know you are just a call away.
@becky: That does make sense. I think we all go through pahses in our life when we feel lonely inspite of being surrounded by people all day long.
@sheela: Well, i’m sure we’ll get over it soon.
@lucio: Thanks a lot.
Hang in there mate. We all reach this crisis every so often.
@Vinaya: Thanks.
How long have you had this new format? I like it!
Maybe you feel lonely cuz you need a girl… Hey! I’m single, too! I can hop on a plane and be over there in a flash!
But seriously… Just tell yourself that this phase will pass. If there is something you are missing, I’m sure you can find it if you search for it with all your heart.
sister dearest–
i dont even have words for you!
Raj, hope you’re feeling better now. hangin there!take care and good luck!
@abigail: I switched to the new template on friday evening. I’m gla you like it. I don’t know if i am lonely cos i need a girl but we can give it a try. So you are welcome to come here whenever you want. I’ve never had a friend come to see me from such great distance.
@Becky:
@sheela: Yes, i’m all better now.
liked the new template
hope you are in fine spirits today
If I had the $ Raj, I’d be there!
@parth: Thanks. I thought my blog deserved to look better. And yes, i’m doing fine now.
@abigail: Oh, never mind. We still have this great way of communicatin, don’t we?