Something’s Missing

Posted by in Bangalore, Life

Sorry about not keeping my promise of writing a real post yesterday. I did have time but just couldn’t get myself to write anything.

Don’t have much to say even today. Just that I feel a little odd right now. I don’t know why, but I just do.

I can’t help reminiscing about the happier times when I stayed with my sister, bro-in-law and niece here in Bangalore. Good times!! I had to commute 20km everyday to my office cos we lived on the outskirts of the city but I never complained (okay, maybe a little cos the roads were bad, but still not much).

Then my bro-in-law got transferred to Delhi and I started living alone. It’s not very common for people my age to stay alone. Generally, 2-3 people share an apartment but since I didn’t have any friends I could share an apartment with, this was the only option I had.

But I have got used to staying alone now. I actually enjoy living alone.

But for the past two days though, something seems to be wrong. I can’t really put a finger on it, so I’ll employ a few lines of a song to express my current feeling.

I can’t be sure that this state of mind
Is not of my own design
I wish there was an over-the-counter test for loneliness
For loneliness like this

Something’s missing
And I don’t know how to fix it
Something’s missing
And I don’t know what it is
No I don’t know what it is

— from “Something’s Missing” by John Mayer.

[Now, I don’t generally quote songs or poems on this blog and don’t really read them when others do but since these few lines describe my current mood appropriately, I couldn’t help but use them.]