Swirl

// September 24th, 2007 // Life

Remember the quarter-life crisis I mentioned few months back? Well, it hasn’t gone away yet! It comes back unannounced time and again to haunt me. And it’s not alone anymore. It is accompanied with massive bouts of loneliness. The reasons are many and yet none that I can pin down in particular. Everything just comes together to ensure that I am uneasy, confused and in turmoil most of the time. So much so that I spent an entire weekend wondering if I can somehow fix the situation. But at the end of that horribly long weekend, it dawned on me that there probably is no quick fix for what I am going through.

So I etched a vague plan on how I can make things better but that would take its own time. For the time being, I have just decided to stay happy somehow. And since I work well with missions, I went ahead and turned it int one – “Mission Happiness”. Sounds easy, doesn’t it? Stay happy! But surprisingly, its proving to be far more difficult than my last mission. Each day is a struggle. To pretend at work that everything is alright, to sound happy on the phone with Mom n Dad, to do everything I once liked doing, to be happy, to just be!

But being the hopeless optimist that I am, I know that things will work out eventually. I just hope this phase ends sooner than later!

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7 Responses to “Swirl”

  1. noName says:
    September 24, 2007 at 10:22 pm

    life is hard.. but d mission sounds amazin.. smthin i want to incorporate in my life too
    god why did we both hav to go thru crisises at d same time..
    hopefully we’ll both ace this mission

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  2. Abhinav says:
    September 26, 2007 at 11:57 am

    “quarter life crisis” hmm … Lonliness??? dude is there any indication of u getting married soon :P

    Mission seems quite interesting and shud be conquered soon :) hoz Gym gng ? :p

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  3. Raj says:
    September 27, 2007 at 10:57 am

    @noName: Well, like you say, misery loves company. So maybe its good that both of us are going through a crisis at the same time. And yes, hopefully, we will ace this mission!

    @Abhinav: No, I am not planning to get married anytime soon. I don’t have to be married to not be lonely, do I? ;) Gym’s going alright!

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  4. Becky L says:
    October 2, 2007 at 2:14 am

    awe, raj! I hope you feel better.
    I totally understand; and its not easy sticking to a ‘mission happiness.’ I try it, but its definitely hard

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  5. Raj says:
    October 4, 2007 at 10:36 am

    @Becky: I do feel better than last week. Yes, it is very difficult to try and stay happy. For now, I am okay with just not being sad :D

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  6. Amodini says:
    October 9, 2007 at 12:55 am

    If this is impeding work/life, you must talk to someone/get help. If you can’t confide in anybody, write about it here, provided you are comfortable with that. Working out should help – try working out for an hour every day. Join a yoga class.

    Meanwhile, am tagging you with the “Middle name” tag. All the things you list must be happy/positive stuff.

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  7. Raj says:
    October 9, 2007 at 4:45 pm

    @Amodini: I am feeling much better now! I do work out and yes, it does help! And I’ve completed the tag. Wasn’t that fast?

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